slave_of_suzumiya | 015 - At least I've got these photos...

(... So, the memories we gained on Valentine's were bogus, huh? Of course, I mean... Me and Sasaki? She was a good friend and quite cute and all, but her general assertion that love was a form of illness. Of course it wasn't real. Despite any interest I may or may not have in her, there's no way she'd ever reciprocate such things. And of course, while we were in the middle of a date of all things, Haruhi just had to turn up and send things to hell. ... I'm sure that gave her a great first impression of Sasaki, huh?

I have to wonder, would it have been worth keeping those memories? All the wonderful time Sasaki and I never had as a real couple... Then again, reality is reality, better to live in real life than live in a fantasy. Regardless of how unrealistic reality may be, it's my life and I'll live it the way I want. That's why I turned down Nagato's fantasy after all, isn't it? The reason I put my life on the line to bring back the Brigade... Oh well, at least I've managed to get one of those laptops Haruhi extorted from the Computer Research Society in exchange for this nonsense. And all those photos of Miss Asahina are still there too...)

[Today, you may find Kyon sitting in the park with a laptop...]

Hmm... No internet access. Figured as much. At least all my files are still here. Not that there's a whole lot of worth considering it's almost all stuff Haruhi had me working on.

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I see you've gotten a computer! I only regained these clothes [She points to her purple dress.] and such things. [She seems to be deliberately ignoring any extra attention he's paying to the ponytail. After all, nothing wrong with switching up one's style, right?!]

Well, previously I managed to get my bike and a copy of a movie Haruhi got us to make. [Ponytail fetish, whhyyy? He wants to get back in there even without the memories seeing you like that. :|]

[Well, it can't be intentional. It was all a coincidence that she came here at all, right?!?!]

Ah yes, your famous bicycle. I wish I had mine, come to think of it. Perhaps next time. Furthermore, it would be hard to mistake that package for something else.

Still, having a computer here is a useful thing. Well, depending on its contents. Are there useful notes? Fond memories?

Largely just things Haruhi had me working on really.

[What, so are you saying you want this? 'cause I thought love was like an illness or something.]

Oh, that's interesting. A project of Suzumiya-san's must be -- off the beaten path. What are they?

[Love is an illness okay and there is nothing more to be said for it. Inducing love in others is like biological warfare and why would anyone want to do THAT]

Just various little things. It wouldn't be worth the effort to explain all of them.

[Okay, goddammit, I can't take it anymore. Here goes nothing... :|]

By the way, I like your hair.

Hmm, if you say so. One or two, perhaps?

[Her eyes seem to harden, but she's smiling and she lets out a low chuckle.]

Thank you, Kyon, I've been thinking about growing it out for some time.

Well, here are some of the files we used for the Brigade website...

Oh, is that so? Any particular reason?

[She sits next to him, peering intently at the screen.] Huh. This logo. It has a strangely fractal quality to it. This image reminds me of something strange. I don't know what exactly.

Yes, I usually keep it shorter because it's more practical, but I have been wondering, for example, in what physical condition we're returned when we come back from the dead. If I grew out my hair here, would I be resurrected with my original hair or with this hair? For example. [AND NO OTHER REASONS]

Yeah, Haruhi designed it.

(And I'd rather not get into the whole tale of the camel cricket...)

Oh, is that all?

Really, it's... attention grabbing. Garish and yet contentful.

Hm, well, too much stability in one's life can be a negative thing. Even in nature, animals who are used to the status quo are often the animals that are eradicated in the punctuated equilibrium theory of evolution, no matter how long they stay alive and thriving in one environment. Little alterations of minor significance, as long as they produce a certain discomfort, may yet keep one ready to be changing in the long run, which is necessary, after all. If we stay too closely wedded to our ideas, we become partisans rather than explorers. Even longstanding beliefs, not to mention one's own hairstyle, can and should be questioned. When events conspire to question them, in particular, it's worth examining them again to see the level of truth and to examine whether there's any truth hidden in them from a different perspective.

Really? I was curious as to whether it was more than something like that...

[Now for a little test of his own... He decides to try leaning in towards her as if for a kiss, before pulling out at the last moment and making it look as though he was just stretching. He wonders what kind of reaction this might get...]

[It's fairly minimal. Her eyes widen a fraction and there's a slight blush rising to her cheeks. But she says nothing, and in particular, she resolutely stands her ground, neither moving away nor towards him, and she acts completely as if she hasn't heard.]

Yes. That's all there is to it; the proper spirit of scientific discovery demands that no matter what dogma we declare, we must be prepared to reexamine it.

[SUCH AS "LOVE IS A MENTAL ILLNESS"]

Right, of course.

[He has a light chuckle. Perhaps there was a real chance for them after all? ... Would it be worth taking such a chance though? For now, it's perhaps a thought that would be better to merely keep in the back. After all, Haruhi's reaction was already bad enough during the event. He didn't want to go provoking things any further until he had thought about it some more.]

[There's a moment of pause. She seems to be thoughtful. Then she nods slightly, her lips curving upwards in a rather unusual smile.]

I see...

Maybe Kyon is a scientist now, too, huh? Well, I'll leave you to your laptop now, Kyon. I was going to go to the store.

I have no idea what you're talking about.

(Feigning ignorance with a smile? ... Koizumi would be proud.)

Right, I'll see you around then.

015 - At least I've got these photos...

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